Wag na lang

Nakiusap na replyan. sige pakinggan. Kinumusta nga ako pero sinumbatan. Nagbago na daw, nag-iba na.
Lahat ng "kung alam mo lang..." narinig ko.



Natanong mo ba kung pano ko hinarap ung araw2 ko?

kung alam mo lang:
*bago pumasok nun naka ayos nako, lalabas nlng ng pinto ng kwarto, pinipigilang wag pumatak habang nagsisintas ng sapatos, isang tanong lang ng boardmate ko bigla akong napa walling, napaupo pa s sahig kakahagulhol. Pagdating s ofc ni d mkatawa, di mkausap, di mkafocus, ang daming escalation kya nalipat ng team. Sabi pa ng tl ko isa akons mga ngagalingan xang agent, araw2 knkmsta ako kung bakit hndi nako umuuwi, nagppbli ng budin pra lng mlman kung kaya ko na. Paguwi ng boarding house gabi2 kong iniyak dahil diko matanggap.

kung alam mo lang.
*habang hinihingi mo yung oras ko, hndi ko natupad dahil may kmag anak akong hndi nkita halos dlwng taon ngaun lng ulit nagkita. Tapos pagttampuhan moko. Di sna ikaw ung pmunta diba.

Kung alam mo lang.
*sinubukan ko rin, magisip ng positibo na maaayos to. Pero lagi nalang nahhinto sa bagay na hindi pako handa.

Kung alam mo lang.
*nung isang araw lang... nag almusal ako sa mcdo, naalala mo ung lolo? Na nagsabi satin n prang magkpatid tayo... masaya nya raw tayong pinapanood habang nagkukulitan. Habang pinipigilan kona namang pumatak... prang pinagsakluban ako, npapatingin lahat ng dumadaan, lumuluha na pala ko ng diko namamalayan. Ang sarap p nmn ng inorder ko ni hindi ko nalasahan.

Kaya eto ako ngayon...
Kasing bitter na ng kape.
Ngayon alam mo na.

Mas mabuti nang hindi mo na nalaman. Tinanong kta kung kya mo ba kong hntayin. sabi mo kung mhal tlga kta di ko na pttgalin. pero parang nagmmdali k ata sabi mo pa maghhnap kana ng iba. Kc nagbago nako, mula nung mpadpad dto. Ang akin lang hindi kc ako nagmmdali. at di ako nag iba... hindi mona lang tlga ko kayang intindihin ngayon, wla ka nang tiwla at dika Na naniniwala. Sabi ko na ddting yung pnahong to, na mapapagod kang intindihin ako.  

Letting God's Plan...

I don't really want to hurt someone.

But if it's the only way of letting God's plan.. . You'll be reminded of His promises.

We have to accept. We need to move forward.

Cause His plan is the best. Go with the flow kid.

Hard to Let Go

How did we get this far?
When everything's fine and
All that we know is our world
A world that made me feel the real me
Now makes me think that I'm lost
Trying to find myself everywhere
But everytime I search for the safest place
It's with you where I want to stay

Why did we get this far?
When all that we have just fade like that
All the memories,all the things we've fixed
We tried it all but we ended like this
Is this just a nightmare
Can you wake me up and say again
"Don't worry for tomorrow
Cause Ill still love you the same"

Did our story end that fast?
Can you give more of your love
I was scared before for the fact
That you love me more
I already felt you'll get tired of me
Cause you're not getting it back
The love you gave is too much
And I can't fight the way you fight for love.

Are we tired enough?
To prove everything we've done
For this relationship we thought would last
For those challenges we've got through
Let me believe that it's true
That we can wait for the right time
Or we can fix this together
Without letting each other go...

You said you'll never go
But if this would be the best thing to do
If we need more time for ourselves
Let us just let go...
Let's see what's our destiny
If it's really you and me
We will still meet at the end of this story.

Real World

"But I don't wanna think about what's gonna come around for me.

I'll just take it day by day cause it's the only way to be the best that I can be."

Why Now?

It's not easy to let go.
But why did you gave up when I need you most to fight for me.
We already survived the hardest challenges and now you're telling me you were tired of fighting for our love.

Why now? When I already decided to let go everything for you.

All we need that time is to fight more for the last time.
If there's finals in all games, where players have to prove their strength , in loving someone you also have to show that.

Why now? When everything's feels right. When we already fixed ourselves without leaving...

With just one more effort , you fail to prove.
Why now?

Now you're trying to come back , promising again , asking for the last chance which I already gave.
You said you love me and you can be my bestfriend  when I need somebody.

But how can you comfort me if you're the reason why i'm suffering like this?

My 24th Birthday (Pahiyas sa Lucban)

This is how I celebrate my birthday yearly! :D 

I was not prepared enough ... to fall so deep in love :)