WELCOME 2017!

Thank You 2016!

Before 2016 ends, I would like to flashback all the trials and lessons happened to me. It might be the most challenging year of mine, I am still thankful that I'm still alive (Hahaha).

CAREER -- I pushed to continue Give Away & Souvenirs (thanks to those who trusted my service!) , I was transferred to different team as Data Analyst and was able to accept that there's no such permanent thing in this world and we have to face that reality. I also got few closed sale of house and lot (in my Real Estate career), yah I know I was broken hearted. Then let's talk about it.

LOVELIFE -- It was summer time when I decided to end the relationship. There'll be that time when we want to know if it's really him. We can't find the answer if we didnt try to let go. So I tried new things like joining in a band (again, but alternative genre). Uhm, I attended parties with friends and officemtes, actually did everything I want. I also tried to go out for a date with new friend, but as months passed by... I still cry at night. I check his facebook using other account (coz i blocked him). In short we tried to bring back our communication. Til I found out that he's still waiting and after 7months I realized important things, contentment -appreciation - understanding and balance time for my love ones.

MUSIC LIFE -- I joined Musician's organization in our company. Now I already have a band called '7th Chord'. I've also brought my own Bass Guitar. Hoping to have more gigs to come!

FAMILY -- it's a big challenge when you're fighting for love. You'll cry again like a child to ur parents but now for a big favor. When they saw you are pretty sure abt decisions u make... they'll trust you with that. Everything will be okay when you communicate well with people u want to stay in ur life. Life is such a big lesson. Life is such a big challenge and full of lessons. God make ways, use people, to help you. I was able to have this deeper relationship with Him and He is with me all through out this year! His love is unfailing and everlasting even if we are undeserving He still loves us. He made me see the good intention of a man. He also showed me the real people around. At the end of the day we must be thankful with these trials cause it made us stronger even more!

LET's Move On and Set Goals!

This year will end successfully, peacefully, and even more happy! So thank God for all the blessings, trials, and success!

I can make more sales, more time for family, friends and love one... as I plan my life w/ You Lord I know this is Your will. Cause I've been praying for this and my faith is in You. Guide me thru this path and let me be a good example to others especially to the youth. I expect more travels and adventures!

Begin Again

It was summer time, when we got that argue and we haven't fixed it. 
The time where we supposed to support each other, fight for love together, but we didn't. I said it's time to let go, and I must start my new life without you.

Yes I started like I didn't know where to go, my pillows never get dry every night. And when I'm ready to go to work in the morning, I was like a drama queen who slowly sit down to that floor while crying. I don't even know how to start my day. 

I focused on other things, and decided to trust in God's plan. 
But there's still something makes me hold on til now.... and there's one way to get through with this situation. We have to face and fix this.... together.

Kaibigan?

Friendship doesn't ask for deeper attention. It is given automatically. Pero kung pareho kau problemado. Magsusukatan paba?
Baka may pinagdadaanan kaya walang time sa kaibigan.
Try mo kamustahin mas malala pa ung problema sau.
Nkakapanghina lng minsan kasi hndi natin tinutulungan sarili natin.. yung nkakaalam ng pinagdadaanan ko sinabihan pako na "buti nakakaya mo, hndi halata sayo, natutulala ka lng s monitor pero pag ako yan baka naisip kona magbigti". But thank God wala yan sa isip ko. Ni hindi sumagi. Kaya nga siguro ako binigyan ng ganitong trial kasi alam ng Lord na kaya ko. At malalampasan ko din to in time. .. 😭
Kaya pra sa mga kaibigan kong nanghihina. Kapit lang mga bess. Hindi pa yan malala. Kumustahin mo muna ako. Baka mapanganga ka sa problema ko.

Wag na lang

Nakiusap na replyan. sige pakinggan. Kinumusta nga ako pero sinumbatan. Nagbago na daw, nag-iba na.
Lahat ng "kung alam mo lang..." narinig ko.



Natanong mo ba kung pano ko hinarap ung araw2 ko?

kung alam mo lang:
*bago pumasok nun naka ayos nako, lalabas nlng ng pinto ng kwarto, pinipigilang wag pumatak habang nagsisintas ng sapatos, isang tanong lang ng boardmate ko bigla akong napa walling, napaupo pa s sahig kakahagulhol. Pagdating s ofc ni d mkatawa, di mkausap, di mkafocus, ang daming escalation kya nalipat ng team. Sabi pa ng tl ko isa akons mga ngagalingan xang agent, araw2 knkmsta ako kung bakit hndi nako umuuwi, nagppbli ng budin pra lng mlman kung kaya ko na. Paguwi ng boarding house gabi2 kong iniyak dahil diko matanggap.

kung alam mo lang.
*habang hinihingi mo yung oras ko, hndi ko natupad dahil may kmag anak akong hndi nkita halos dlwng taon ngaun lng ulit nagkita. Tapos pagttampuhan moko. Di sna ikaw ung pmunta diba.

Kung alam mo lang.
*sinubukan ko rin, magisip ng positibo na maaayos to. Pero lagi nalang nahhinto sa bagay na hindi pako handa.

Kung alam mo lang.
*nung isang araw lang... nag almusal ako sa mcdo, naalala mo ung lolo? Na nagsabi satin n prang magkpatid tayo... masaya nya raw tayong pinapanood habang nagkukulitan. Habang pinipigilan kona namang pumatak... prang pinagsakluban ako, npapatingin lahat ng dumadaan, lumuluha na pala ko ng diko namamalayan. Ang sarap p nmn ng inorder ko ni hindi ko nalasahan.

Kaya eto ako ngayon...
Kasing bitter na ng kape.
Ngayon alam mo na.

Mas mabuti nang hindi mo na nalaman. Tinanong kta kung kya mo ba kong hntayin. sabi mo kung mhal tlga kta di ko na pttgalin. pero parang nagmmdali k ata sabi mo pa maghhnap kana ng iba. Kc nagbago nako, mula nung mpadpad dto. Ang akin lang hindi kc ako nagmmdali. at di ako nag iba... hindi mona lang tlga ko kayang intindihin ngayon, wla ka nang tiwla at dika Na naniniwala. Sabi ko na ddting yung pnahong to, na mapapagod kang intindihin ako.  

Letting God's Plan...

I don't really want to hurt someone.

But if it's the only way of letting God's plan.. . You'll be reminded of His promises.

We have to accept. We need to move forward.

Cause His plan is the best. Go with the flow kid.

Hard to Let Go

How did we get this far?
When everything's fine and
All that we know is our world
A world that made me feel the real me
Now makes me think that I'm lost
Trying to find myself everywhere
But everytime I search for the safest place
It's with you where I want to stay

Why did we get this far?
When all that we have just fade like that
All the memories,all the things we've fixed
We tried it all but we ended like this
Is this just a nightmare
Can you wake me up and say again
"Don't worry for tomorrow
Cause Ill still love you the same"

Did our story end that fast?
Can you give more of your love
I was scared before for the fact
That you love me more
I already felt you'll get tired of me
Cause you're not getting it back
The love you gave is too much
And I can't fight the way you fight for love.

Are we tired enough?
To prove everything we've done
For this relationship we thought would last
For those challenges we've got through
Let me believe that it's true
That we can wait for the right time
Or we can fix this together
Without letting each other go...

You said you'll never go
But if this would be the best thing to do
If we need more time for ourselves
Let us just let go...
Let's see what's our destiny
If it's really you and me
We will still meet at the end of this story.

Real World

"But I don't wanna think about what's gonna come around for me.

I'll just take it day by day cause it's the only way to be the best that I can be."